Fifteen Shades of Gay (For Pay) - T. Baggins

♥♥♥ 4 STARS ♥♥♥



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"Put your arms around me. No. Eyes closed," Andrew insisted. "That's it. Hold me tighter. Open your mouth, but don't do anything. Leave it to me."

Cormac's embrace was warm and hard. This time, Andrew kissed the other man even slower, exploring more deeply with his tongue.

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This book was so much better than I had initially thought it would be. The cover isn't that great, and the title, well... But the book was a real pleasant surprise. I didn't want to stop.





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"Cormac," Andrew said the other man's name slowly, caressing both syllables with his tongue. "Youre the only guy I like, when I want to see a man's face, it's yours. When I want to hear a man's voice, you're the only man who comes to mind..."

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Andrew Reynolds is a "straight" aspiring actor living in New York City. But finding work has been difficult for him. He urgently needs money to help his sick sister pay her medical bills, along with his own bills that are piling up. The only job he can seem to find, is the one thing he never saw himself doing... becoming a gay escort and pretending to be gay.

The whole book was told in Andrew's POV. I liked him a lot for the way he cared for his sister Marie. He was very encouraging and always trying to lift her spirit. He would read to her some "mommy porn" so that she could, for a few moments, forget she had cancer. That was really sweet to see. But he started off with a serious dislike for gay men, or a phobia really. It's all due to his upbringing involving his gay father. Andrew was repulsed with the idea of gay sex. Just because he will be an escort, does not mean he will be participating in any sexual acts. At least that's what he thought in the beginning.



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"You are perfect." Cormac spoke each word slowly, as if articulating something he'd sworn never to reveal. "Sometimes you lick your upper lip before you speak. Did you know that? I first noticed in the Irish bar. Makes me crazy."

"Really? Then lick it for me... slowly."

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Cormac Donovan is a closeted gay senator from California. When he visits New York, he hires a gay escort to keep him company. This is how he meets Andrew. He doesn't look for sex from an escort, just a night on the town. Andrew is nervous of his first official "date". He soon realizes there is nothing to fear, he really likes Cormac. The feeling is mutual. A friendship is formed between them.

I thought Cormac was a great guy from the start. I never had any creepy feelings about him. He seemed to genuinely care about Andrew and was always kind, concerned, sweet, and respectful. He always saw Andrew as a person, not a just as an "escort". My only wish would have been that he'd appear more in the book. I felt like we got so little of him and that there wasn't enough info on him to really get to know him like we did Andrew. Still, I liked what little glimpses we got. I couldn't wait for his return to New York so they could see each other again.

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“That’s what you’ve done for me, Marie. Protected me from the day I was born. Been my best friend, my confidante. Kept me alive when I wanted to die. I love you. Don’t ever say you never accomplished anything.
Your life matters. It matters to me.”

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The story had me hooked and all I wanted to do was keep on reading. I felt like with there being a character with cancer, it was written in a great realistic manner. It was sad for sure, to the point where I cried, but there was also some humour and happy moments that balanced it all out. As much as I really liked this book, it wasn't perfect. I thought that Andrew got over his vomit inducing fear of gay men rather quickly. I don't even understand how it really happened because it was just too fast. I know that Paresh helped him in his self discovery... but still, too fast. What I did like was that once Andrew accepted who he was, he didn't hold back anymore. He was lucky to share it with his sister Marie. What an amazing character she was.



There was plenty of steam in this book and some involving bdsm. It was hot for sure, but like I said before, I was highly anticipating any love scene with Cormac. Andrew helped Cormac (who was new to it all) discover his sexual side. It was AWESOME! I couldn't wait for ANY scene where they would interact. They were just perfect together. I was completely enthralled. I was so bloody happy when they became more.



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"I love you, Andrew."
"I love you, Cormac." Cormac's grin took his breath away.
"Then I have everything I'll ever need."

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The ending was a bit predictable but I still freaking LOVED it. I was so happy to see them together. The epilogue made me smile so big. It was great. Overall, the only thing I didn't like was that Andrew changed so fast in his ideas, and when he would work for Paresh and later on Sven. I just didn't really like them, well Paresh later on I liked a bit more, but Sven was a horrible man. Just like I didn't really like Andrew's gay father. Although, his partner Hugh was wonderful. I don't think I would really label this book a romance, even though there is a romance in this book. I feel like it was more about Andrew living his life and discovering things about himself that ended up making him a better person, while finding love in the process. I really enjoyed this book more than I thought I would. Don't let the title or cover deter you from reading it. It might just surprise you. I recommend you give it a try.